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Chapter 5

Sometimes I wish I was blind. To not see the cruels on earth, and all the sadness that comes along with it. Now would be a good time to be blind..

The unknown girl who stood in front of me a minute ago, had made her move. She seperated Jin's hands from mine, and kissed him.

"Who's this Jin? Your little whore?" She said after she finished. I waited for him to reply, but he didn't speak a word.

It took me a minute to progress everything that just happened. For all my life, I was able to control my body through will. But seeing this, my body acted on its own. Tears flowed uncontrollably. I didn't want to hear him explain. Nor did I want to hear anymore of her degrading comments.

*SMACK* She stared at me spechless at what I'd done. Knowing me so well, I knew Jin was prepared to take the hit. The stinging from the slap left my hand burning. I couldn't stand being around them any longer. I did what any girl would have done. I ran. Not because I was scared, not because I didn't want to stand up for him.

But simply because for the first time in my life, it felt like he wasnt worth it. As if he were just any ordinary boy. Not some one who I thought meant so much to me.

As I darted away, I felt his hands grasp mine. I shook from his grasp and kept running. Like the world was going to end right before my eyes.

"Let her go." The lady said as she held him back. I wanted him to run, to chase after me. But I guess her words were enough for him to forget me.

I didn't know where I was heading, as long as my feet were still moving, I felt better. The feeling of getting away from it all. I didn't want to go home tonight. Home would be the last place I'd want to be right now. It was place I had decorated with all the memories of Jin and me. And right now, he's the last person I want to see.

My head completely lost track of time, before I knew it, the sound of waves came within hearing distance. It was getting dark, but even if it was pitch black, I'd still know where I was heading, the beach.

I knew every curve of the road, every rock in the way, every whole on the ground. Even if I was really blind, I knew this place by heart. I kept on walking, until I reached the shores of the ocean. I didn't know how far I was from the parking lot, all I could feel was sand on the feet.

WOOSH shhh, WOOSH shhh, WOOSH shhh.

It was cold, the feeling of the water against my toes. I picked up my sandles and sat down, staring at the moon. Who knew, it was a full moon today.

My face felt like ice, from the tears and wind blowing against my face. I didn't know what to think, nor did I know how to deal. I never truly understood what it meant when people told me to not make someone your everything, until now. Where do I go from here? What am I suppose to do?

"AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!" I screamed at the silent ocean. "HOW COULD YOU TREAT ME LIKE THIS? ahhuh *sniff* AHHHHHH!" I pounded at the soft sand. It took me a while to calm myself down. I havent cried like this for as long as I could remember.

*Rainy day - Ayumi Hamasaki*
Wasure taku nai koto nara
Oboeyou to shinaku temo
Wasureru koto nante nai
Sou shizuka ni kanjiru
I picked up my cell phone and looked at the caller ID. *Jin* I picked up but didn't say a word.

"Miwa, where are you? Let me expl---." I hung up.

"Whatever." I said and dropped the phone on my purse.

*Wasure taku nai koto nara
Oboeyou to shinaku temo
Wasureru koto nante nai
Sou shizuka ni kanjiru*

I picked up. "THERES NOTHING TO EXPLAIN!" I screamed into the phone.

"Hi there mad lady." I heard on the other end.

"Oh, Nami. Hey..." I said. Nami was my best friend from childhood. She used to live next to me, until she got accepted into a student exchange program. She's now living in NY studying fashion and its always nice to hear her voice.

"That's my greeting? I havent talked to you in forever and that's what you say to me? You were always a bitch you know that?" She said.

"Haha." I said. Nami knew how to make me smile in any situation.

"Yeah, thats right. So what's wrong?" She asked.

"I don't wanna talk about it..." I said.

"Whatt??? :O Fine, well, don't go crying to me when I'm not around." She said. I knew she was joking, thats how Nami always was. Whether good or bad, she'll always have a smiling face or she knew how to make someone's day without having a good day herself. I loved her for that.

"Haha, sorry, today's just not a good day. I'll call you some other time and tell you what happened." I said.

"Sounds good. So how's Jin?" She asked.

"Uhhhhh, hes goodd..." Trying to sound convincing.

"Ha. Well, I hope you feel better. Whatever it is, I'm always here for you."

When she said this, I knew she had an idea what happened.

"Don't keep yourself bottled in you know, its not bad for you. Especially with that heart of yours." She said.

"Yeah, I'll try to remember that. Thanks." I said. Thats right. I guess being normal isnt really a big trend in my family. My mom has blood cancer, my dad died early of a heart attack and me, well, I was born with a bad heart. Sometimes it'll start to act up. Grasping air from my lungs. No matter how much I try to breath, it's as if it never gets to my heart. It felt like I had a black hole inside my body that sucks in all the air I breathe. Back then, I occasionally blacked out from these attacks and was sent to the emergency rooms many times. Even at my worst, Jin would always stay by my side. I guess now's not a really good time to talk about it...

"You know, sometimes people forget to appreciate the people around them. And misunderstand them a countless number of times. Most of the time, that's what causes a relationship to end. Even if it's friendship, family, or even a significant other. You have to just hear the person out. Maybe you were just jumping to conclusions. And let's just hope it's not how it really seems." She said.

"Yeah, I hope not..." I said.

"Well, I'll be off next week. So you can call me anytime. Oh yeah, since I'm never going to get this opportunity to have a long break again, I'll be going to the beach on Thursday. But you can still call if you need me. I just wanted you to know." She said.

"Okay, thanks and I hope you have fun! I really miss hanging out with you. I wish we could spend all those days together like back then. " I said.

"Wouldn't that be nice? haha. " She said.

"Oh yeah. My m------" I was cut off.

".......... Miwa?... are you there? Miwa.. stop messing around...." Nami said. No reply.

"...MIWA! MIWA!!" Nami screamed.