Self-Mutilation

[Sex Goddess]

I used to cut, almost 5 years ago. I did it until my boyfriend of the time made me promise never to do it again. I have stopped, but sometimes when I'm feeling bad, I trace the path of my scar with my fingernails and hope for it to bleed.

I don't really know why I did it, to be honest. I think I was just fascinated with the notion of pain and suffering on so many different levels, including self-mutilation.

[xspiralt]

I put "Yes, but i got help" but I more like just stopped after a few times because my parents were getting suspicious >.<

If you're truly depressed and suicidal and you cut, it doesn't hurt, in fact, it just feels better, which is why it can get addicting, almost like a drug. Cutting out of curiosity's sake is just stupid.

That's all I really have to say.

[oRaNgE_n_LiMe]

sometimes when i feel anxious, i do something.

[henah ♥]

I never do anything on purpose.
But when I can't stop laughing with someone when I'm supposed to be serious, I put my nails in my skin to get pain to stop laughing. Hah.

[nicoleboo ‹3]

Originally posted by Jenny@Nov 5, 01:14 PM
I used to cut, almost 5 years ago. I did it until my boyfriend of the time made me promise never to do it again. I have stopped, but sometimes when I'm feeling bad, I trace the path of my scar with my fingernails and hope for it to bleed.

Yeah me, too !! .. When I started going out with my boyfriend .. [haha] i promised i wouldn`t do it again .. and i intend not to do it again .. && it hurt my friends, too . I feel like instead of cutting .. i can just scream or cry. Sometimes, I think about doing it .. but then i think of everyone i`d let down . !!

[Try_to_tear_me_down_6]

Originally posted by twin__cinema+Nov 4, 01:55 PM--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td>QUOTE (twin__cinema @ Nov 4, 01:55 PM)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'> <!--QuoteBegin-cloakandswagger@Nov 4, 03:06 PM
I think that cutting is really stupid. That's the bottom line. The only reason people do it is because they're crying out for attention and help. It's a simple as this--if you've got problems, get help. And think about it, if you REALLY wanted to kill yourself, why would you slit your wrists when you could just cut your jugular.

That's about the most ignorant things I've ever heard.

If you think cutting is stupid, then ignore it. No one asked you what you thought of it.

It's not always for attention. I used to do it, I think I would know. I did it because it made me forget my emotional pain. As much as that doesn't make sense to anyone who doesn't do it, well, that's pretty much why. I always did my best to cover it, no one really noticed. Only one of my best friends have, when I was at her house & we were going to bed & I was taking off my bracelet. I quickly covered it up but she said something about a week later. She didn't seem too concerned. But I felt guilty because later on she did it too, after her boyfriend broke up with her. I felt like I was the one to blame.

Not everyone can get help. It isn't as easy as it sounds. Maybe you have the money to go to a doctor or have someone you can talk to, but I sure as hell didn't have either one. I still do it sometimes, honestly. Well, now it's more like a scratch than a deep cut so it isn't very noticable.

Isn't it a little insensitive to tell people to go to cut their jugular? Some people really have problems. Just because your life is **bleep** perfect doesn't mean everyone's just making everything up or whatever you're trying to get at. People like you seriously sicken me.

The biggest thing that annoys me about kids cutting themselves today is that people take it as a fad. Today, emo has become a lot more mainstream and a lot more people have started cutting themselves because they think that it's the cool thing to do. Because of the stupid emo bands, it's now cool to be sad and angsty. Seriously, if you xanga surf through the sites of emo kids, a lot of people take pictures of hte designs that they carve into their arms....and in their comments, people say things like "Oh that's so cool!"

However, if you're doing it for that reason.. I'll agree. Those people should go cut their juglars. [/b][/quote]
Thank you Jamie. You said EVERYTHING I wanted to say.

And the girl who said they should just cut their juggular... You're rude. Extremely rude. Not everyone who cuts themselves want to die. For a lot of people, it's the opposite.

And to the person below me who said everyone has their opionion, I agree completely with that but there is a fine line between having an opinion and being rude.

And yes, I'll agree that now it's the fad for emo kids. But what about the people who aren't emo and cut themselves? My dad does it. I don't think he's emo. I do/did it. I'm definatly not emo at all.

I think cutting is a very personal topic and topic about self mutilation aren't needed. It's too personal. If someone has a problem with cutting, a teen blogring board isn't going to help you. You need to help yourself and no one here can do that for you.

[x__fadingaway]

<span style=\'color:green\'>yes...i have...and i still do...some people obviously think it's stupid...i agree that it's stupid to do it to be "cool", but i mean...for any other reason, u just don't know what the person is thinking when they do it...so, u really shouldn't judge them if u don't know what's going on with them...</span>

[the disco]

I have never and I will never. I think it's sad and scary, but I can understand why people think they need to. I just wish their lives didn't come down to that. It's terrible that people can get so down about things getting hard. Things have gotten really bad for me and I've been really depressed, but I've never hurt myself.
I know a cutter and it makes me feel awful. I wish I had more to say, but it's just a difficult issue to analyze.

i know, myself, that it's a very stupid thing to do.. but i also, am i victim of this. it's been a whole year since i started. i got caught, & got some help, so i don't do it anymore. however, i still think of it. no one will ever know the true story of someone, so really.. it isn't so nice to judge someone just because they hurt themselves or not. sometimes the person really does go through so much that they can't handle.

from experience though, being "the cutter" can leave you permanent scars inside, & also that's how people will end up remember you as. i lost some friends.. because of that. lesson learned, thank you.

[a lonely regret ♥]

It's scary to me and it worries me to know what some girls are doing to themselves. I understand completely where the recoverers are saying things firmly because it's personal to them. I honestly feel that I have no business talking about this because I know nothing about it. Sure, anyone who hasn't done it can do research, but what can you really learn from adults saying why kids cut themselves? Not very much. You know so much more when you lived it in reality. So no, I'm not the person you should be asking to give you advice. But I will say this: I understand if you use cutting as a painkiller, as you are numb to your body pain when all your emotion pain is swirling around your head. Don't get too used to it, though. You can't be 100% sure every time that you will miss a vein. And remember your family, or if they're the problem, remember people who care for you. Get your feelings out. You really don't have to go to a doctor or counselor that you can't afford. You can go to a school guidance counselor or a teahcer or adult you trust about your problems. They won't tell anyone, except someone to get help for you. And if I'm worried about you, and I don't know you, then imagine how people who care for you must feel.