Hopeless

[temptd]

I find myself, once again, a victim of your chram. I feel as if I'm
standing on a precipice, balancing my two loves at opposite ends, and
one little step, one slight mistake could cause it all to collapse upon
me.
I feel your sly charm, once again, burrowing itself into my heart, your
memories trickling down my mind. It is as if pandoras box was opened
again, and my world is, once again, filled with confusion and chaos.
There you stand looking as smug as ever, your eyes wandering down
forbidden paths, and I notice the faint smile that you wear, the same
one you had when it all began.
I've always hated you for what you did to me, hated you for what you've
become for me. I'm so addicted to you, to your eyes and your hair and
the sound of your voice. I've become addicted to all you stand for and
for all that you are.
Look at me, see what you've done. But you'll never ackwnoledge it.
You're just fine living a lie, you'll never admit you love me. I can't
say that I love you too, but I can say that I need you.