Mental Chaos

[temptd]

Do you hear my heart breaking?
Can you hear the pieces shattering, one by one?
You're the reason I'm a mess today,
You're the reason why I've forgotten how to smile.

Do you even feel the way I'm feeling right now?
Or are you moving on with life,
like I was never around?
Do you still dream of what our perfect life would have been?
I've tried but all I see is ruins.

And I'm trying so hard to hate you for all you've done to me,
I'm trying so hard to forget you even meant something.
But my mind keeps wandering back to thoughts of you,
And every time I close my eyes all I see is you.

I can't seem to understand why Its so hard to move on,
Why even in its last beats, my heart longs for you.
At this point I have no feelings left,
I'm numb to the world, numb to any pain.

Yet there's still that tiny droplet of sadness that lingers in my mind,
And all I can wonder is why,
just why we couldn't survive?
I feel so trapped in my emotions,
Its like a burden I'm bearing.
I'm losing sight of what it means to be happy,
All I ever wish for now is to go back to the beginning.

I don't know if ill ever escape my heartbreak,
Or if ill ever even learn to love again.
I'm too afraid of getting hurt again,
I opened up to you and you ripped me apart.
For once in my life I was faithful to someone,
and now your that one person who I've lost all faith in.