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I unfortunately feel as if my attitude goes both ways; both negatively and positively. But not as negative as you might first think...
Because I have really, really high moral values, I feel as if I don't fit in all the time. Actually, I don't fit in, period. I never did, I never will. I'm also different in the sense that I will not sell my body, or look like a prostitute. The most I have ever shown in my life is wearing a short leave mens shirt. And because of that throughout elementary school, I was called a lesbian by the guys... because I wouldn't "give them a peice of ass."
Its negative on me because society looks down on me. You know, for as strong willed as I am, sometimes I wonder how it would be if I got a little more attention from people... good attention, rather then the bad glares and the mocking behind my back. You know, like if I was a popular girl at school, and actually recieved attention from the opposite sex. Sometimes I just wish I had that because I need self-confidence and I need to be reassured that I'm beautiful... but I feel as if being the way I am interfers with that.
But then I am so happy with how I am sometimes, so much that it gives me the self-confidence that I need to keep on going. I like to be an outcast, I like to be different, I like to have morals... because I know someone out there loves me and they're doing the same for me too. And that makes me the happiest person alive. I look at society and see just how bad it's getting and I'm happy for myself that I made that commitment to not give in to it.
On Blogring, I think a lot of people judge me by my attitude a lot. But that is partially my fault, since I am so sarcastic all the time, and when I see girls doing such dumb things and such young (and getting younger) ages, I get upset. That also has to do with my nervous problem, which makes me react to my environment in ways different from others.
A lot of the people I met on Blogring that have actually made an effort to contact me on Instant Messaging have said in one way or another I have said something that impacted their life. I tend to have a spiritual side to me... I hardly show it on Blogring though. But I respect that they made an effort to talk to me, and we're all the best of friends now, and I host most of them on my domain. ^_^ And they're all great people, even though we might have some different opinions.
So all in all, my attitude helps me get some great friends, but it also impacts how people see me negatively, thus creating enemies. But its all good... because I'm happy with who I am and what I have become.
</rambling> Sorry...
Let me see if I get this right.
We need to borrow $10 billion from China,
and then give it to Musharraf,
a military dictator, who overthrew an elected government. We go to war, lose all these lives... promoting democracy in Iraq.
I mean, what’s going on here?
Ron Paul 2008
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